It's been ages...months since I added a blog. Havent had the time, the will, the strength to do so. But a friend's new blog reminded me about how writing was therapy for me and God knows how much I need that release now. I've had a pretty bad run these past couple of weeks...emotionally and all. Have been nursing this cursed flu for 2 1/2 weeks. That doesnt help me emotionally. But this much I have to say. I DID IT! I finally did it! I finally found the courage to leave my job and go do something else. Of course I don't start till next year but it is such a release to be free from the chains that have bound me. I became what I set out not to be....so I'd better go before it kills me further. So much pain associated with my current job... linking the personal life with my professional life. Dad told me once that such an association is bad...he was right.

Things on the friend end got no better... as usual I put my foot in my mouth again. Don't know how to undo the damage. All I know is it feels terrible to go to the office and face a bunch of people who don't seem to want you around. Can't wait to leave....

Someone asked why I haven't had a new blog posted. I suppose life has a way of tripping you up. Been having a horrible past few days and pretty much figured I should be a hermit and live on my own desert isle somewhere... far from everyone. Seems SOME people around me been letting me down and I kinda regret opening up to people at times.

I guess I am just tired of everyone BLAMING ME when it is them shutting me out. Ever been surrounded by people called 'friends' but in the midst of all the busy-ness and chaos, you inadvertently feel ALONE? That's me and then you start questioning your very core, your very being as a person.... That's what I have been feeling since the work year resumed... ALONE...So very alone and not wanted or needed...so I shall slowly retreat....ignore...be oblivious...

Trying to get a hang of this blog stuff..guess will just have to get some help from the niece. Anyway...it's time to get connected...kinda behind the times...the niece always laughs at me...just got a NEOPET 3 mths ago after 3 years of chasing the students...kinda addictive. Anyways just marvelling at how far the Internet has come since my days in Washington. I remember going to Todd Hall and using the pathetic PCs there. How emailing dad was like based on a UNIX system....how slow the Internet was and all... Really a wealth of info at one's finger tips. AMAZING! Viva lah technology!

Guess I just need a BLOG to get jiggy with it....soemwhere I can air my views??? An online journal of sorts..since the traditional pen n paper one kinda got thrown out the door??